today,

ADELINES MOTORCYCLE FUND IS ALMOST FINISHED!!!!
Denise and i are ohsososo happie! (: we are right? =D we wna thank all the plp who have given us donations and helped us with putting money into that box! yurpyurp. and uh, adeline is very grateful. she is right?(: yesyes.

MY BRACES HURT SO BLOOODY MUCH AND MY LOWER JAW IS SWOLLEN!
made worse all thanks to botin who made me laugh n laugh..and laugh sooo many times n still made me laugh when i BEGGED her to STOP!

WE MISSED THE BUS BACK T SCH
cause we took sooooooo LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG to decide if we shld go by mrt or bus. we (botin shanmin grace da adeline clara denise and me) ended up taking mrt back.

IM HOME NOW TYPING INTO MY COM
cause i was bored at first but now my mom is screaming for me to GET OFF THE COM! and to go and bathe! but i agree somehow. im dirty smelly n filthy right now. so i shld go and bathe, before i corrote. yurpyurp.

RANDOM QUOTE B4 I GO!(and bathe)
butt your head into the wall
Stars you see
And then you fall
Too hard to penetrate
Undenied
Youre helpless
And youre petrified.

Im so gna be a phsycologist one day. OR a playwright or an animator. (:

vindicated @ 4:51:00 AM

HULLO peeps(:

today was a math rem day! i realised, from mr poH, that i have the strong, the ultimate, and the greeen, its none other than the GREEN FORM!! SCREAAM! yuh, cause i didnt go for two math rems. BLUHBLUHBLUH. Sooo, i went for math rem tdy! its actually quite fun! (: Mr harmdun/ hamdan, harmdan, humdan, HUN DAN! is a very goood tchr! i like his method, down to the facts in lucidity and jelly beans for us at the end!!

UNLIKE a certain mr poH. he only gives us sweets when we answer questions! many frowns )): and he seperated me fomr denise, my psychological barrier/laming partner/fellow vandaliser/person who laughs at me.
mr HMDN is a role model for all you tchrs out thr(: so fish out your pennies n quarters n purchase sweets for your loveble students ya?(:

AND!!!!!!! GET RDY TO APPLAUD! I PASSED MY CHEMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU MISS HAFIZAH! denise laughed at me though): and adeline told me it was nothing. and vanessa called me a lauya. but im still happy((((:

And deniCe mathew! we shall work hard for 2nd term kay! Jiayou my desk partner! heh hurry find/buy/bring your history book! (:

OKAY! i am feeling tired of blogging! ): and tired of stayin awake. i shall g-o t-o s-l-e-e-p. NIGHT yall<3

vindicated @ 6:48:00 AM

am at cousin mj's house(:
got lost on the way to her house):
had fun at her house(:
jogged arnd her house(:
talked abt the ppl living arnd her house(;
i dont wna leave her house!):
i had fun at her house(:
LOOOVEEEE her house(:
love her(:
mwaahaha joshua gan is my best friend mj. be depressed. we can manipulate you(:
kay luh, go mj, dont get pissed during tuition. concentrate! <3

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Youre never there
Youre never relied upon
Never gave us the chance
To know why youre the only one
Who cant make the commitment
Cant give your all
Are we just possesions to you
Are we just play things
Which you can leave behind
When there is no need
Do you
think you are supreme
give a damn single thought
about what you sow
with your actions
Are you
out with a purpose
to pull down morale
if so
then get lost now
with your attacks
and
begone.
BEGONE.
BEGONE.
BEGONE.
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vindicated @ 6:40:00 AM

before: expensive and wholeafter: cheap and torn!!!!!!

vindicated @ 4:01:00 AM

This post goes to my cousin MJ(:
Youve been GREEAT, thank you couz for all tt youve helped me with. rlly. and for your spastic moments and my spastic moments AND the spastic moments we shared tgd. haha. Youre the best luh, seriously. HEHEH. <3 i'll always be here for you, RMB that! (:

Just went to marine parade with louisa denise n botin just now. botin is having tuition now, and denise n louisa prob are still sitting in the bus? =D have a saafe journey home! (:

louisa:" WHERE'S MY CLAMS!!!!!!!!!" =D

i am craving for tao kae noi. the #1 seaweed on earth. whatever. random. bye.

theres just this nagging conscience at the back of my head, telling me somethings wrong. and i dont wna face up to it. yep, i'll be the next.

vindicated @ 7:37:00 AM

i think im paranoid. yep, that must be it. yupyupyup.

vindicated @ 6:18:00 AM

Paperwall

Like vines twined within vines
When one is pulled
So will the other heart strings
That arch around the scant remnants of her identity

She hears a sound. Laughter.
A familiarity
A flimsy doll
That shrieks and shreds
Opens her mouth to say a word
To measure up

But along the way
It is processed, modified,
packaged, certified
Before it reaches the air

Her fingers are too willowy
Too weak to grasp
The porcelain
She tries to hold

Alas

It falls and breaks
Kisses the ground
Unable to be whole
anymore

A cry. A tear.
Bring in the glue
Scotch tape, wires too.

She must bind the broken pieces back!

But the cracks that show
Despite the guise
Glow luminously in the night

Give up.

She takes the scarred trinket
And throws it out
Into the abyss
From her window

------END------

What a manual job it is, hiding behind crowds. It drains mind power, eats away at self esteem like acid corroting the skin.

Try. and fail. grasp the rail.
Fall and trip. You cant get up, cause you're too sick.
Of everything.

Of not having your advocate by your side.
Being like a shadow that needs to hide.
Trampled at the sides.

And no one will hear you. Or see you. Or feel you. Cause you dont even know yourself.

vindicated @ 6:01:00 AM

This small bit of e post is dedicated to the stubborn people who keep hearing my words wrongly(:

1) Tomorrow
It is not pronounced, (as you so hear), as to-MAR-ro.

2)Ribena
It is not RIE-bEE-na, but ri, or ree beena. YESYES.

3)Odour
Used in the term "body odour". And no, i did not say order or oh-door! =DDD

Today was a halfway in nowhere day. Didnt feel sad or ecstatic or whatsoever. Felt DISCONTENTED? oh weeeell. As usual, woke up kinda late, at abt 6. 45? (: my body clock sooo needs a repair, right? =D Took the late train, stepped into school just in time! And you can hear our school morning song from the mountain base luh! (okaye, exagerrating. exagerating, exxegerating. AHH.) Had trng, rushED home to watch hua yang shao nian shao nu. YES denise, i realise that jiro is so adoraaaaable! <33333333 if he could be my boyfriend, i'd go ballistic! i'd be so happy, id commit suicide or smth!

ANDANDAND. This part goes to YUXUN! the best right hand side partner on earth. (best LHS partner of course goes to DENISE MATHEW=D) YUXUN is kind, tall, skinny, sampson, clever, patient, HAS a DEEEEEp bellow-y voice. mwahahha. And he donated to adeline's motorcycle fund! applause to yuxun!!! (:

MY MATH IS IMPROVING. jiehui and grace are the best student tutors EVAHHH!! (:

thats all tdy ppl. good night sleep tite tck. and see YALL tmr on founders day. stupid founders day. I mean, clever. whatever. byee.

vindicated @ 5:35:00 AM

Nemo. A nobody.

A shadow strayed apart from the limelight. But sometimes, its the littlest things in life that keep us going. A smile from the blue, or a pat on the shoulder from behind. These little gestures are what keeps humanity humane. For what human on earth can truly survive without human contact. On what flimsy evidence can he proudly proclaim that he does not survive on love, kinship or brotherhood.

Knives through the spine. Little gossip that progresses into an astronomical sized hit, right upon your heart. The colossus monster that tears through every single one of your veins, leaving you a shadow of the past that grasps too hard onto what you used to be.

Your mouth does not take your heed, and by the time its too late, you've turned the gargoyles to stone just thinking . Are you human? Or are you just about revenge, prancing in joy to the beat of atrocity, a projection invented to make miniscule impact on another shadow's life?

Are you a parasite caused to invoke grief, siphone joy? A boring robot who has repeated one too many words already, just like a nagging parent? Or are you a something, that can work in progression, in hope of being a better version of yourself.

Be there, or miss the chance of being relied upon. Just like crying wolf too many a time, when the authentic disaster strikes, no one will be there. You'll be a lone stick figure, singular in the storm. And when the lightning strikes and the thunder bellows in your ears, everyone else will be cowering away, leaving you behind.

Like a mechanism that attaches itself onto chosen victims, so has this curse been fixed on many. Apalled at its silent yet fatal damage, should you strangle yourself or let the poison work while you waste away at the table side? Too many questions, far countless doubts. The human mind can only take so much, but how much it can take cannot be compared with others. They are weak. But they may be strong as compared to another.

The purpose. The heart. And the will.

Take my heart
Bend my achilles heel

Nemo. A nobody.

Just wait till this star burns so bright, it'll turn you blind.
Melt you away, eat you inside.

vindicated @ 6:39:00 AM